You Don't Deserve To Wear A Bikini

Growing up in the LA/Hollywood distortion...

I grew up fucking hating my body.

Desperately trying to fit into a picture perfect box of what society painted as "beautiful". As "desirable". As even "okay".

I wasted so much time focusing on looking a certain way. On being a certain size. A certain shape. A certain weight.

So much of my precious energy was spent feeling insecure, unworthy, and not good enough.

Regardless of how much I actually weighed, I felt fat, and hated my body.

I lived my life in a constant downward body shame spiral.
And because of this, I missed out on experiencing so many wonderful things. 

The SHAME seed was planted...

At age 13 I was legit told by a teenage boy at the beach: 

"You don't deserve to wear a bikini". 

He launched this explosive word grenade, while adorned with a stick skinny 90 lb girl on each arm. 

What the actual fuck?! 

I was wearing a biking at the time.
I weighed maybe 125 lbs...?
I was not fat by any stretch of the imagination. 

However, as the body shaming trio looked down on me through piercing eyes of harsh judgment and distain, through the programming and social conditioning of an idealized plastic Barbie doll culture, my innocence shattered into a million fucking pieces. 

This shitty comment, this ONE sentence, uttered by a mean hearted stranger, fucking landed.

I allowed this to destroy me.

It was my garden of eden apple moment. I liken it to Eve suddenly becoming aware of her own nakedness. 

It planted the seed of shame that took root. It grew and spread like wildfire.

This one fucking cruel comment seeded decades of body shame that manifested as deep body hatred. 

And while this moment shaped and informed so much of my life from that point forward, it has taught me so much. 

The Truth is...

I am so much more than just a body. My body is the beautiful temple, the sacred vessel, that my soul came here to experience life through. No matter what it looks like.

I didn't know this at age 13. Thank God I know this now.

Our biggest wounding provides our greatest teaching. We can choose to stay in the low vibrational garbage. Or we can choose to alchemize the lie and remember the truth of who we really are.

You do not have to agree to the distortions of other people's illusion.
 And although that shame filled illusion still occasionally rears its ugly head, I am not a victim to that experience any longer. 

In truth, I never really was. 

I simply gave my power away, and agreed to a lie. 

So to all the women who hate your bodies, remember, your body is the beautiful temple, the sacred vessel, that your soul came here to experience life through.

Regardless of what you look like, thin, fat, or in between, your body is the sacred house of your soul.

The more you love + appreciate yourself and your body, right NOW, as you ARE, the more you uproot and alchemize the shitty seeds of shame.
It's time to wake up, to choose to step up, and to powerfully claim your own liberation. 

And as always...

Show up courageously. Be authentic. Speak your soul's truth. Unapologetically. And With Love.

~ Diana Rose Kottle

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Liberation From Shame

Cleansing Tears

I find Crying fucking gorgeous. It cleanses shame and opens the flow...

My practice is showing up for myself when I want to run away screaming from the pain.

And to instead stand tall and shine love on my shadow.

I'm learning how to BE with me. 

With ALL of me. 

The light and the dark. 

The judgements. The shadow. The less than noble parts of my personality self.

The parts I'm proud of + the aspects that hold so much shame I reject and want to annihilate.

Those shame filled pockets are exactly what I lean into, be with, dance with. 

To dissolve and alchemize... with fierce beautiful love. 

Tears soften and release shame, transforming it into something gorgeous filled with gifts.

There is no shame in crying. 

In fact, it's often through our tears that we release the heavy pockets of shame + self judgement we hold. 

So allow the cleansing tears to flow. 

It is liberating AF.

And allowing your true authentic expression to flow, will begin to set you free.

It's time to wake up, to choose to step up, and to powerfully claim your own liberation. 

And as always...

Show up courageously. Be authentic. Speak your soul's truth. Unapologetically. And With Love.

~ Diana Rose Kottle

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When Your Soul Is Drowning

Do you ever feel like your soul is drowning...? 

Like the very life force inside of you is not burning so brightly.

Like you are going through the motions of life. Robotically. Asleep. On autopilot.

Like you are an absolute mess + out of fucking control.

I SEE YOU. I UNDERSTAND. 
AND YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

Soul sickness is real. It has become an epidemic. 

Working in a job you hate. Being in emotionally abusive + toxic relationships.

Avoiding your feelings by numbing out, running away, trying desperately to escape the pain.

Living in environments that do not nurture you on a soul level.

Essentially, living a lie. 

All of these create and seed a deep soul sickness. Where it feels like your soul is drowning...

1. Connection is a Key
When it feels like your soul is drowning, it's a call to level up.

It's time to find the missing connection within. 

Chances are you've been receiving many signs, from the Universe, many urges from your soul, that point you toward your true alignment.

And it's time to choose to go inwards and finally really listen. 

2. Being Truthful is Another Key

It's time to get and be really fucking honest with yourself.

To ask the tough questions that burst you open and set your soul on fire.


Questions such as:

Where are you lying to yourself?

Where are you settling for less than what you deserve? 

Where are you making excuses and shutting yourself down?

Where are you listening to other peoples shitty judgmental voices?

Where are you allowing yourself to collapse into fear? 

Accessing your Truth, is what will begin to set you free.

3. Loving Yourself is Another Key

If you are still not loving yourself, it's time to get your ass on board the self-love train. Pronto.

This is essential. A non-negotiable. It's not some new age woo-woo airy fairy bullshit. It's legit. It's where the magic happens.

It's what gets you into your HEART.

And your heart field, IS the doorway, the portal, into the quantum field.

It IS the zero-point from which all creation stems.

It's the space where your soul light lives.

So if your light feels dim, re-ignite + beam the TRUTH of LOVE brightly my love. 

CLAIM YOUR WORTH. YOU ARE LOVABLE. 

There is no need for your soul to drown in the illusion. Unless of course, that is what you choose to experience...

It's time to wake up, to choose to step up, and to powerfully claim your own liberation. 

And as always...

Show up courageously. Be authentic. Speak your soul's truth. Unapologetically. And With Love.

~ Diana Rose Kottle

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